My Sweetheart,
My jaw cannot come off the floor, and it’s absolutely true when people say that life constantly provides us with unexpected and unpredicted joys.
You are a boy, and I cannot say I saw that coming. I instantly saw that little thing that puts you in the “male category” and instead of any sense of disappointment; I felt a very different feeling. Happiness. Gratitude. Absolute contentment. My own little man.
That little guy moving on that screen? That’s my son.
We listened to your heartbeat for what seems like forever (the best gift I could ever ask for), and your grandmother kept screaming at the lady to show her your parts again. I think everyone in the room needed confirmation that you were a boy, over and over. They kept checking, and you stayed a boy. 120% sure this time!
A few moments ago I rested my hands on the sides of my belly, and I smiled and said “Hello my little son..My son-shine, I should say.” And I laughed. Laughed because it feels like I’m learning you all over again. The kicks are familiar, but now I’m trying to tie a whole new person to them.
In my head, this is fate. A girl’s name has been the hardest challenge to figure out. They either don’t sound right, or there is an unpleasant association with any given name I’m even somewhat fond of.
But your name.. It’s like music to my ears, and as effortlessly as breathing.
My little Kaiden.
I’m told there is nothing like the bond between a mother and a son, and there is nothing like the bond between a mother and their first child. You, my boy, are hitting two birds with one stone. It’s hard to imagine that I could love anyone so much as I do those little movements in my body. I already feel that connection.
I cannot promise I’m always going to be the best parent, and your family isn’t going to always be perfect, and we might not be able to always give you everything you’ll ever want – but I can promise you that we will always be wealthy in the things that matter most. Because unconditional love and happiness? We have a lot of it ready for you, little boy.
Now I feel you kicking impatiently, and I have your heartbeat preserved in a bear.
So when you are ready, Kaiden, the whole world will be out here waiting for you.
My jaw cannot come off the floor, and it’s absolutely true when people say that life constantly provides us with unexpected and unpredicted joys.
You are a boy, and I cannot say I saw that coming. I instantly saw that little thing that puts you in the “male category” and instead of any sense of disappointment; I felt a very different feeling. Happiness. Gratitude. Absolute contentment. My own little man.
That little guy moving on that screen? That’s my son.
We listened to your heartbeat for what seems like forever (the best gift I could ever ask for), and your grandmother kept screaming at the lady to show her your parts again. I think everyone in the room needed confirmation that you were a boy, over and over. They kept checking, and you stayed a boy. 120% sure this time!
A few moments ago I rested my hands on the sides of my belly, and I smiled and said “Hello my little son..My son-shine, I should say.” And I laughed. Laughed because it feels like I’m learning you all over again. The kicks are familiar, but now I’m trying to tie a whole new person to them.
In my head, this is fate. A girl’s name has been the hardest challenge to figure out. They either don’t sound right, or there is an unpleasant association with any given name I’m even somewhat fond of.
But your name.. It’s like music to my ears, and as effortlessly as breathing.
My little Kaiden.
I’m told there is nothing like the bond between a mother and a son, and there is nothing like the bond between a mother and their first child. You, my boy, are hitting two birds with one stone. It’s hard to imagine that I could love anyone so much as I do those little movements in my body. I already feel that connection.
I cannot promise I’m always going to be the best parent, and your family isn’t going to always be perfect, and we might not be able to always give you everything you’ll ever want – but I can promise you that we will always be wealthy in the things that matter most. Because unconditional love and happiness? We have a lot of it ready for you, little boy.
Now I feel you kicking impatiently, and I have your heartbeat preserved in a bear.
So when you are ready, Kaiden, the whole world will be out here waiting for you.
